Fruitless Efforts to Fitness....

Today after a long time I realized that I had started to slack again in terms of exercising... I had got fatt... I mean very at.... Now the BMI shows that I am on the border-line of over-weight and obese. Hence I have to do something about it and need to do it fast.....

I'm a night owl; but today after setting nearly 8 alarms, got up at 6am....

Damn, getting up at 6am is a lot of effort.... Seriously lot... I know I have to wake up... but both my mind and my body seem to be in another dimension. Seriously.. damn why does the body seem to move so slow in the morning.... It feels like being inside a zombies body.... You know what to do... but cant completely control it... BRAINS!!!!

Jokes apart, getting the body to move in a coordinated matter is a whole different story... Arms are floppy and even legs wont command your minds order....

Exercising (to be precise cardio) after a long time left like my heart is going to burst out of the rib cage... i could feel that small organ pumping fast... I mean very fast and my muscles are getting tired... soon after about 30 mins completely wiped out....

Then while relaxing came to know there were some muscles which were aching I didn't even know they existed... Guess they were buried under the multitude layers of fat....

Now my goal is to be fit.... Would fancy a six pack abs... but I know its out of my league... just want to be normal looking right now....

From today will be controlling my diet as well as loads of exercise for each and every day till I reach my target....

Hopefully I will try to stick to my plan.. Wishing me best of luck!!!

Sick Germs!!!

Getting sick is kind of lame!!!

You are free for the day, fucking no work to go to, (saying to those who take a sick leave instead of working their asses off even when they are sick and realllly need some rest) seems like a dream - but damn it isn't....

You are sick... really sick; you don't have control over your body - don't know what the fuck it is up to.... You just want to go in the sun and enjoy - but stuck in bed.... Know that feeling - been there....

Don't forget the added bonus - special trips to the hospital or doctors chambers.... Every damn hospital smells nearly the same... The fumes are irritating and nauseating... How the hell doctors and nurses work there is beyond my imagination....

Imagine you being a doctor or a nurse..... For every fucking workday you have to see sick people.... Don't they ever get tired of curing sick guys.... I'm actually pretty thankful for doctors myself... they saved my ass more times than I can count... Just don't like the experience....

Plus the medicines - they really make you sick... Pharma companies are actually trying to make the medicines taste bitter... And you trust the doctor whatever injection he gives or whatever drugs he recommends.... And you take it all; never even know whats creeping inside them or how will they react inside your body...

I had an allergy to a supposedly "medicine" given by the doctor... I trusted him of course - and I still do trust doctor's medicines... But on that fateful day the alleged medicine exploded like an fuckin nuclear bomb inside me... Never I had been so miserable in my whole life... I am feeling dreaded and fearful just thinking about it.... I have never ever been as close to death as that medicine did me... My whole boys was in pain; my fucking head exploded... could see lights everywhere for more than an hour.... My body went to the most primitive of human responses and guess what - I just vomited the shit out of everything I ate for the last two days.... Then came the solace.... "INNER PEACE" - being exhausted after fighting the devil medicine inside me........

When you gotta, you do visit the hospital... its unavoidable... whether it is some disease or some fracture.. or whatever shit nature does to you... You have to be strong and healthy again, and hence visits are necessary sometimes... My god, I love insurance companies when you are covered for a health insurance... If you are not; let God save you... Hospital bills are so huge that they can leave you penniless if you aren't covered enough. Forget that vacation or that swanky new ride you were thinking.... Now you will be thinking how can I pay my god-damn huge hospital bills.... Every test, every scan of any kind is so costly... Do they make hospital equipment of gold? Apparently many of those equipment are made of rare earth metals... some even cost more than gold.... And surgery rooms are very hard to keep germ free and you do like sterile when the doctor guy is going to butcher you up....

You know, the root cause of human suffering - struggle for existence and the will to live.... Those are the fundamental things present in each animal - and we strive to survive in this harsh world... The fucking germs - bacteria, viruses, phages, amoeba - they are quintessential for the world in which we live... In fact we can't live without them; but damn I hate them when they wage wars against our body and even being billions of times smaller than us they can make us literally weak on our knees....But thankfully those periods are rare; and God bless penicillin and the antibiotic revolution along with modern medicine for saving bazillions of lives.... Otherwise, more than a fourth of us wouldn't be even living till now surfing the net.... and making a poker face whenever we see or write LOL on the net....

Underdogs vs. Goliath

This pic above really amuses me....

The David vs. Goliath story....

David has gotta win... we are always fighting goliaths in our day to day life and damn... we lose....

The corporations, cartels and governments are all Goliaths....

We are all ting and puny in front of them....

But do we have to scared and afraid..... Definitely and firmly NO!!!!

The ways of the universe are truly mysterious... sometimes we achieve something which is totally beyond us.... for example I had a serious ailment which could not be cured normally... I had snakes growing in my leg... literally (excess growth of veins).... But then fighting back and after a series of operations I am perfectly normal and healthy....

Each of us has a personal experience which is totally beyond us... just pure luck along with loads of hard-work.... Hard-work is a mighty term; but better term would be smart-work.... Everyone works hard; the smarter way one does the hard work is the winner....

We just have to believe in our dreams; cause that is the fire which keeps our spark glowing and we can make that spark into our own personal fire....

If our fire is string enough, you can control the world... seriously....

Consider what Hitler was... I'm not saying that he must be cordoned for all the terrible evils he has done... But we have to appreciate one thing; he was a fighter - stood up for what he believed in... from a downtrodden family - a person who wanted to study art in Vienna 'Academy of Fine Arts'... He became the most respected person among Nazis (damn I do hate them); but from such humble beginnings became the most feared person in the world....

The world is full of opportunities for us.... We just have to take the right ones...(that's not easy at all making right choices in life... life is really a messed up place)

The choices we make define who we are and makes up humans....

Hence we have to fight, claw deep and struggle to defeat everything and everyone to survive....

Finally we all are the "SUPREME HUNTERS" in this small planet called Earth!!!!!

Damn Money!!!!

F#$%ing Money!!!! Why does it always have to run away from us!!!!!

Wouldn't the world be a much better place without it!!!!

Why do most of us run behind a few scraps of paper with which we can buy whatever hell we want????

Why is money equated with happiness? Why do some people are obscenely rich while others are so poor that they cannot afford to buy anything?

Money really does make the world go around.... and best part is it is almost fictional.... It is the guarantee of the government that the money is valuable.... Can we take for granted any word said by the government!!!!

History of Money is interesting enough!!!!

Money was invented long before we were industrialized. It was eternally present as mankind itself.
Money in earlier days meant specially cut stones, shells and even salt!!!! Some parts of globe used even huge round granite wheels heavier than a car as currency!!!

But today money has assumed a different form. For the convenience we have money in shape of paper which is guaranteed to have value by the government of the country in which you live in. This was first started by the emperor of China (the same country which gave us noodles... popularized as ramen by Japanese) but slowly gained acceptance throughout the world....

Wait can we fake some paper bills???? Absolutely not.... Now-a-days currency has a gazillion security measures built into it and the process of creation is a carefully guarded secret... otherwise we all would be millionaires.....

Now let us see the psychological aspect of money. In fact there isn't any psychology to it... Just made that up!!!!

Money is equated with status and power in the society. Money gives us the purchasing power to buy anything we like. But does money guarantee happiness? This is question which is highly debated. But both you and me know the answer for this!!!! Definite yes!!!! If not why would be we running behind money!!!!

In some economies yes, more money i.e. average of per capita income of the population shows that greater the money, greater is the happiness. But many underdeveloped and developing worlds are happier than their richer cousins. Anomaly? I think not!!!

Money is valued and cherished by capitalist economies. But hunter gatherers (i mean naked primitives in remote parts of the globe) who have solely depended on nature may find this to be odd, sometimes obscure.
Why do people give such a damn to some silly thing as paper??? According to them, the only good use of money is as kindling!!!!

The money is sure to give us all the worldly pleasures but it does give us satisfaction and contentment. But can money buy happiness???? (Second time repeated the same question)

I can't answer this...... You have to decide n your own......

Happiness is a very relative term, but in general people derive true happiness from their human relations (spouses, lovers and of course family) and happiness derived from spending money.....

Human relations, most importantly love gives us immense happiness that can never be achieved just by giving money. But it sure does feel good when we receive inheritance from our family.....

The emotional aspect makes us feel good, be content in our life and thus makes us a better human being. The rich poor divide is increasing and we are the one to blame for it. Today 2% of population holds 70% of the wealth in the world. The annual profits of companies like General Electric and Ford exceeds the entire budget of all the countries of Sub Saharan Africa.... Of course how will a desert provide anything... Let along money.....

Money is the one thing which is driving this world... (Seriously dude, I have repeated myself twice) Money comes to those who have power; power comes from taking responsibility and leading people.... Also, some ass-holes get money due to sheer luck or being born with a silver spoon.... into some royal family or inheritance of some major business.....

So lets garner up more of this thing... For sure, one thing I can tell you and the world believes in....
Money definitely equates with success!!!!!!

F#$%ing Responsibility

Province... How ya doing lads!!!!.... Sorry for the Old English or my attempt at Old English....

Responsibility is a big word.... Actually never realized its value until around 6 months back....

I have always been fed with a silver spoon and I got pretty much what ever I wanted....

But doing things on my own stint took me places... made me change cities... landed me a job... taught me a lot about responsibilities....

Its funny how such a long word have a meaning that deep and yet this simple... you take a task and make sure you do it right... If you screw up in anyways; you know who is to blame; YOU!!!!

That is one of the great things that work life has taught me... I'm not saying that I wasn't responsible enough earlier... I'm just saying that I used to make more liberty to make careless mistakes for which others had to pay....

Its this teeny tiny thing which everyone shrugs off as in the above picture... Let the Blame Games Begin!!!!

But taking responsibility is great.... Sure you are accountable and you have to make others work so that they are every bit as accountable as you are - but you get much more in return...

You know that you are going to make someone happy if you do your task responsibly... You may not like what you're doing; but the end satisfaction is totally worth it.... It makes you grow into a better person....

And you can apply it in your work as well as everyday life.... I have noticed that it is particularly useful in work-life... Those who take on greater share of responsibilities are noticed, promoted earlier than everyone else and get the highest incentives.... They are also those who work beyond the stipulated times, know what are their duties and how to complete them efficiently and overall take a greater burden of work load upon themselves....

I can tell you by all the meager experience that I have; being responsible is difficult game... So many seen and unseen factors topple you... But here in lies the distinction of being just a job and a career that you actually love....

In your family, being responsible to your spouse and kids will truly help to learn the value of relationships.... Relationships are always a tricky business to handle and thus they are always shared responsibilities.... The pair should always work for what is in their best interests...

Hence, don't shun responsibilities like I did; embrace them to have a better life!!!!

Holy Godliness!!!!

We all have faith.. almost all of us (about 98%) for sure... Rest 2% are either agnostic, atheist or don't have any damned religion....

I am one of those damned.... I am an atheist.....

Hence, I don't believe in some higher power or any religion for that matter.... For me all religions, I mean all religions are just a load of crap..... (Actually was born into a religion and still write it in official forms requiring it.... but damned... thats just for the official purpose)....

Its not as if I don't visit any holy places as such... (Rarely... once in a blue moon I am dragged due to social obligations into going to temples, or churches or mosques) What I d there is just admire the beauty of the structures... But whats their purpose and what goes inside there I am not at all interested in any degree.....

I find some people religious nut-jobs (not to offend any feeling here... People have their right to religion as I have my freedom for speech). Memorizing verses of Bhagwad Gita, or Bible or Quran.... Sure those religious books do provide some examples as to how to lead a good human life... But why don't people understand that they are just books... Meant to be read, enjoyed and hopefully which can help you to become a better human being.... But memorizing them to their core and delving into its deeper meaning is bull-shit because there isn't anything much there....

I don't see how people foolishly believe something their priest says cause "they are speakers to the god!!!"
Damn, I hate priest of all kind - they are sort of manipulative bitches which will feed your brain with crap from childhood and slowly you will start believing them.... People some things happen because of coincidences and probabilities... not because of a higher power is trying to help you.... You definitely have to get out of their trap!!!!

If that were the case there would have been no children starving in Africa, no homeless people and everything would be rosy... but it isn't. If there were a god, and we were its children... God would be an awful parent who needs to be sued in the courts for neglect of their children.... We can free murderers in the world and pardon crime lords... coz God will save us all and sure they will get punishment in heaven or hell...

Fantasizing won't help much  - the fact being when you die you die and there is nothing beyond that.... People have wars over religion.... that is at-least one thing which no religion should do and no religion truly does.... Half witted people kiss their priests asses in the faint hope that God will be good to them and pardon them; they do all sorts of heinous crimes as man-slaughter.... that too "In the name of God"...

If you truly want to make a change, make a change within yourself; be a better parent, loving husband or wife, treat you co-workers and juniors and your kids better.... It is your actions which the world sees and noble actions do get recognized.... So its time to change yourself and be a better person than believing that a savior might come to rescue your souls... You can yourself save a few souls by being kind and generous... There is no need of a god to tell you truly what the right thing is....

I don't truly understand when people will start looking beyond god and festivals and actually just celebrate the gift of life as is!!!!

I'm hoping to see that day at least in my lifetime and hope that 2% of atheists or agnostics grow to a larger mainstream size!!!!

Agitator

CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT THING IN THE WORLD!!!!

Change is something akin to a washing machine; but mixes dirt along with the good clothes....

Nobody likes change... Everyone deep down is happy the way the things were doing...

Damn, why are people so complacent and happy with constant routines and things..... I would kill myself to do a routine for a sustained period of time.. (of course except sleeping, breathing and eating.... got to do those chores anyways)

Hate seeing people in misery, when we all know they can lift themselves upto a better life... (But darn, its too hard for them... )

People have a general tendency (including mine) to bullshit themselves into believing stuff that their mediocre boring life serves some purpose.... (finding meaning in mundane existence; which is pretty boring)

There are only two great powers in this world which can help people to accept and notice change: FEAR and RESPECT....

Fear works instantaneously...(don't want to remind dear old Hitler about it), but is short lived.. (and if you are using fear... especially goes to multitude levels of bosses.... fear results into rebellion cause human spirit can't be caged for long... Hence, whoever is a terrible boss out there.. stop oppressing your juniors)

Respect on the other hand works miraculously... its very difficult to get and very easy to lose (especially if you are careless... like sometimes I am) But respect once earned, stays for a lifetime and you will revere and idolize that persons... (for me that is myself). Still millions worship Mahatma Gandhi and will continue doing so for his great non violence deeds... ( but on a personal note: instead of waiting for so long like him; I would have preferred violence to get that freedom... but that's just me)

Sometimes change is like a big washing machine except working in reverse; dirtying the clothes you worked so hard to wash - going through hardships once again....

But one thing people don't realize is that hardships are what makes a man into something more than a man.... not that kind of hardship which can be routinized... but those kinds through which you gain more knowledge about the workings between humans and ultimately with the universe.... (Hope to achieve these kinds of dynamics myself... but oh boy sure it ain't gonna happen soon)

Accepting change is one of the most difficult jobs you do in your life.. whether it is your education, your passion, friends, career, soul-mate... list goes on.... But once you accept the change, the decisions that need to be made become awfully clear cut in your head so as to work upon them into "Actions".

Actions are a different set altogether... requiring dedication on your part to make the impossible possible....

Change is easier by embracing it and I hope we can make our lives better with it.....

Beginnings

Damn, sometimes somethings in life make you realize how lucky we are to be alive to enjoy each and very day!!!

Today just watched a move 50-50 about a cancer patient who fights off a terrible cancer.... guesses it right... with his chances 50-50. Good movie with a happy ending.... Guy goes out with his therapist doctor in the end.... Anna Kendrick does look smoking hot in there....

So, where were we, life is precious and we should enjoy each and very day....

Time to live like there's no tomorrow...

Thinking of doing bunch of stuff.... Get rid of old habits... to have  neater clean place... clearing out all the junk in the house, body and soul.....

Doing things that I really enjoy and trying to go out for a run tomorrow morning.... That's kind of hard considering the cold weather... But atleast I'm gonna try....

Will start learning the guitar once again, kind of left the learning process hanging midway....

So, thats it... will try to be more optimistic about everything in the near future....

Master Chef

We all eat!!

Actually we all eat a lot!!! (anorexics discounted)

Food is well basically food.... both for the mind and soul....

Remember how chocolates can cheer us up and spicy food makes us hot (lol)!!!

Or the way the alcohol works on our bodies... (can't get over that sensation can we)

Food is loved, written about and made so diversely all around the globe.... But yeah, our palettes differ a lot!!!

Japanese and Asian in general (especially those living in and around coast lines) can tolerate a lot of fishy smell... (which would make us puke) with dry fish and all..... But those same people can't even tolerate (hard, smelly) cheese like Roquefort or Gorgonzola...

We all have a distinct relationship with our foods.... The ones which we consider homely... which I'm pretty sure your mom force-fed you when you were a kid...

Food is not just serious eating business it's also fun... Would be glad to go to "Tomatina Festival" in Spain.... I would really like to mash those tomatoes up like we did when we were kids..... And seriously, no one’s ever going to scold us there....

Food has a serious romantic appeal.... As all going out for dates go to fancy restaurants whose tiny serving portions would make us think... (What!!! I'm being ripped off!!! This tinny tiny portion of barely edible junk does no justice to the huge sum you got from my bank account!!!!)

Food is all in the aroma they say... like when we get cold, all the foods taste utterly bland.... like eating paper.... I guess someone should start a new industry... paper food.... You take loads of paper (got zero calories); put a little bit of starch (survival energy) and have tiny bottles like small perfume sprays.... Just spray on the paper... instant steak... chicken... whatever hell you like..... But ain't gonna happen soon... Wait for a few more centuries till all the farmland on earth gets used up... then you'll see where I'm going.....

You know, food was one reason man got intelligent... no not joking!!!

You know early humans were pathetic little souls... couldn't run fast... didn't have claws and were easy picks for all other animals.... But why are we dominant now???? FOOD.....

Lack of food and little bit of climate change forced the monkeys to come out of trees into open grassland.... They were easily targeted by predators... and hence learned to socialize, communicate and develop tools.... so they won't be picked upon by larger more scarier animals with huge teeth and big claws.... Hence technology developed and here we are today.....

Guys went hunting while females sat in caves looking after kids and cleaning the caves.... Over millennia, guys bored of seeing the sky and sun for so long developed the affinity for blue... while girls who picked ripe fruits from the orchards and saw a healthy glow in their children had the color pink ingrained in them....

Hence, most of the guy’s favourite colour is bleu; while those for girls are girly pink.....

But today's modern age has brought all sorts of conveniences into our lives... Who wouldn't want a hot cuppa of steaming instant noodlesss.... (still sort of like them) or ready to eat frozen foods... just microwave them....

The days of going to the kitchen and putting in long toiling hours are finally over..... Great for bachelors....

But just let me ask you'll a question..... Do you really know where your food is coming from? Chocolate from Ghana.... (Can’t even think about going there...), coffee from somewhere else.... all the stuff in our kitchen is not even produced within 100 miles from where we live.... That food for all practical purposes might have just landed from another planet....

Suppose if you were the last person on earth and you have very little food left... wat would you do???? I know I can’t grow anything... (whatever I accidently grow... is unwanted gross stuff anyways) So how would you feed....

Start with a wee little bit of gardening in your yard... Know even I have to do the same... Let’s all just start eating (I MEAN A LOT OF EATING!!!!) for a better sustainable tomorrow!!!!

Uno

10 long days have passed since I left home for work; which can be very exciting!!! (sarcasm hinted)

11 days since the start of the new year...

New year; don't still get it why people celebrate it so much?

Is it due to the wild parties or the fact that u have wasted a year in your life that you can never get back!!!!

Introspecting... last year was a total waste..... Sure did loads of stuff, hanged around, did a few experiments... explored some places... shopped... average stuff... nothing extraordinary...

Looking back in this year I am still staring at my plain old self and what I used to do....

Has been almost 2 years after I started full time work and man work sucks and hence called work.... Getting paid and all is good; you do have the money to flaunt around.... but that's it!!!

Sure doing work for a foreign country (which I could not visit till date) and working ur asses off for the company must mean something.... And definitely it does.... No Social Life!!!!!

Hence, finding some solace in the comforts of my real home prompted a lot of soul searching!!! (did find some bits of crap floating around there for sure... but who doesn't)

Earlier used to give people advice.... but WHO WOULD LISTEN? In the end it seems that I need some kind f advice on wat I should really do to get my life more spiced up!!!! (not talking about chillies here)

I need a new things done for this year... but God forbid... I'm not making any resolutions coz I know I'm a sucker for sticking to it...

Need to settle my debts, enjoy and cherish the friends that I have are all that I'm asking... of course with a decent lifestyle, some Mercs, private islands and that kind of stuff....

Makings dreams into reality is a tricky business coz dreams shatter u know!!!

Putting a brave face on a boatship of crap isn't going to do any good either...

Instead of putting everything aside u cherish, leaving the safety zone, u should explore the unknown; the X-factor....

Something new and amazing and challenging is all wat I'm looking for and these will be my rantings for hopefully each and every day....

So looking forward for some responses from you'll.....